I always loved reading and had a great natural aptitude for creating fascinating stories. I finished my book and its manuscript burned my fingers.
I became a member of the ‘Pen-Friends’ club, aspiring authors of my little countrified and old-fashioned town, in the spring of 2011.
When a friend of mine offered to spend a long winter night reading and discussing my manuscript in a company of like-minded people, I rejoiced and agreed with delight. Little did I know what it would make me fear for the sanity of my mind and the soundness of my body.
There wasn’t a nerve in me this experience hadn’t twisted. It wrongs my heart to think that one of my books was so close to being buried in the coffin of a negatively false critic. The true nature of this club made me shiver with repulsion, sell my house, and change my address.
We always met on the dark side of twilight. The owner of the house welcomed everyone with an uncompromising face, hard diction, and vibrating consonants. When I looked thoughtfully enough, I saw a person who admitted nothing and looked down on everybody but himself.
If he could not out-argue me on the point of the value of my book, he bullied me and took my silence for agreement with his views.
Dracula #1 had her hour of victory when with malicious intention she made me believe she was a trustworthy friend. And when my heart was open, she triumphantly ended any amicable intercourse, exchanging it to a pretentious smile. She invented various scenarios to make me feel sorry for the things I’d done and confided to her. Her sudden transformation was the major reason that raced my shadow away from my hometown.
Dracula #2 was not tall, but he carried his head so haughtily that he looked a commanding figure, and there was something cunning and sharp in the look of his closely set little grey eyes. He disapproved of every attempt of my authorship experimentations in his engaging, deep, and a little husky voice.
I almost lost an ability to think under a tyranny of his pressing personality. He reasoned well and was driving at making me doubt my book and forsake an idea to publish it.
In the company of these people, I became almost not real anymore. This wretched book club made me forget all my responsibilities toward my family and friends. They had been quite ‘blowing my trumpet’ to win my confidence at the beginning. And at the end, I became a person on whom they exercised their revolting abilities to drain and drench.
That was a lesson to learn and never to be forgotten. I learned to stay positive no matter what happened and what others thought about me. Now nothing can shake the step of my intellectual pace. I believe in myself and in people I love and care about.